I Hate Myself

Yesterday, I promise myself to wake up at 8.30am to study.. But just now, I wake up at 10.30am.. I hate myself..

Yesterday, I promise myself not to access to internet and straight away go study after waking up.. But now I'm posting post here. I hate myself..

I haven't grow up.. I'm not mature enough.. I must be kiasu during exam week.. But I'm enjoying.. I hate myself..

Again and again.. I din't do what I have promise to myself.. I really hate myself..

How can I stop wasting time and be serious to SPM? Be hardworking? I afraid that I'm just saying and din't do anything at the end.. I hate myself..

What is the solution for my lazyness? Get a person everyday remind you and nag you to do your homework and revision? Sorry, I don't have a friend or family member who is so care and so free to bother about me.. I hate myself..

I can't stop time from flying.. But I can use the time fullest.. However I don't know how or perhaps don't want.. I hate myself..

Hate myself doesn't solve the problem.. Love myself also doesn't solve my problem.. How am I going to do? Waiting for my lucky star to shine on me? Ya, you may...

ARRRRHHHHG~~~~!!!

You are the only one who can only save yourself only..

Be tough, be serious and be hardworking.